so not a lot new with me. did a photoshoot with Bloodpigs and some friends about a month ago, that was pretty fun. been taking a lot more photos lately and of different things, seems i'm slowly improving. still single and fine with that, its entirely by choice in fact, seems i've pissed a few people off cause i won't date them or i'm not madly in love with them. i'm interesting in someone, and they'd mentioned being interested in me, but we mutually agreed now's not a good time to get into a relationship. despite that fact though, they went from being super affectionate to not, and so i question their feelings and am unsure whether they stopped liking me (in THAT way, god i sound like i'm in jr high) or whether they're just afraid to be affectionate cause they're scared i'm going to expect something to come of it, or who knows maybe they think if they're affectionate that THEY will get attached to ME more. i'm not really sure but its making me a tad crazy and frustrated. been applying for jobs lately, i went to one interview and they said they'd be calling me back for a second interview, its not quite the job position i wanted (bench technician) but its still in the tech department and since its the tech services manager who interviewed me, if they DO hire me i'll be first in line for consideration if something comes up for technician or assembler, etc. the position i may be getting is doing "customer service" type stuff, so booking in tech work (so i'd still be learning things, figuring out what common issues are, etc), and then returns and exchanges and the bit of cashier work that's associated with it. i've got lots of experience doing that so i don't really mind too much, plus the pay is awesome, dress code's pretty casual, and most of my piercings won't be an issue, YAY! annnnnnnnnd i get to hang out with a bunch of nerds ten hours a day, amusingly enough i got asked "how do you feel working with a bunch of guys, and the nerd variety at that?" my response was "i LOVE nerds, most of my friends are guys and they're hardcore gamers, and i don't even know what to talk to girls about cause I like Star Wars and they like makeup", it was pretty fuckin' hilarious, i'm fairly sure i'd be the ONLY girl there, but i don't mind, it'd still be pretty awesome, surrounded by computers all day and nerdery? its a dream. sooooooooooooooo i really really hope i get it, wish me luck peoples. i'm off all my meds, so although i'm back to being my true self (which is crazy and fucked up) i'm feeling better without the meds and i'm handling things better, so i feel i've made the right decision on this. umm, besides that nothing much new, just thought i'd toss in an update.